And in Our Care....She'll stay!!

After being in the hospital for three days after having her biliary lines changed I told the doctors to release Lorrie and let us go home today. They obviously have decided not to do anything more in a curative nature I believe because we have Hospice in play. It's just as well because I can take over where they left off and make a difference in her comfort. She has been home almost eight hours and been resting peacefully without much pain at all. She has been drinking a new protein formula that we found and is keeping it down. It is called IsoPure and it is 100% Pure Ion Exchange Whey Protein Isolate. If she can manage to drink it each day it will supply her with the necessary proteins her body isn't getting and give her a fighting chance to gain some needed weight. The past few days have been incredibly hard for Lorrie in the hospital because being labeled stage 4 terminal cancer patient in a minimal Hospice care treatment state, they have done what they seem to think they do best buy pumping her with excessive amounts of Diladid pain medication over the past couple of days. Once I found out that they were giving her 2 mils of the pain medication I then understood why she was so delirious and non communicative. I told them to give her half that amount and if she needed more to give her the other dose of it. All of a sudden five hours later, we were carrying on conversations about getting out of there the next day. I'm not saying they were intentionally trying to over medicate Lorrie but they service so many people with this disease and they feel that it is in the best interest of the patient to push the medication factor to the limit in order to make them comfortable. Hospice met me in the hospital and told me that they spoke with the resident doctors and they feel that I should place her in their in-Hospice treatment center and continue to treat her pain levels more accuaratly and I responded politely with a definite resounding NO!! Alicia and I are at her side everyday and we have got a great balance of care between the two of us. I would have never thought in my wildest dreams that one day I would be having to care for Lorrie the way we do daily but I wouldn't have it any other way. If she could find a way to drag my 250 pound ass around the house she would do the same for me. She's got 100% of my attention and love through this battle we fight together. Kari, Lorrie loved your post and promises to fight with all she's got. Thanks again for everyones support...